Something is very WRONG with me. I wish i could explain it. I wish i knew how to
express out what exactly it is... I DREAD coming to work .... I DREAD looking at
the dire state of the lab .. .. I DREAD taking leaves / MCs .... I DREAD the
thought of inhaling poisonous vapors .... & I DREAD driving the same route
to work ..Overall, perhaps im sick of working.Neither am i in the mood to
study.So what exactly do i want right?I dont know.If you look at the condition
of my working lab, i doubt you want to stay for a good 5 mins in there.Really.
No joke one.Never mind that its undergoing renovation currently, but the fact of
safety is another thing.What's the point of achieving a new, cleaner
outlook,when the equipments are manualistic,and isnt in a good condition?Though
i work in a male-dominated department, I would appreciate it very much,if they
somehow remember there's a lady around, each time they talk something soo male
stuffs.I neither am embarassed nor do i blushed, when they talked in front of
me, but its just not soo respectful.Notably, these males there arent very
gentlemanly.Perhaps, they took me as a male, like one of them.I hated this
certain someone there.In previous happier times, we joked and laughed at each
other.But eversince that certain incident 2 weeks ago, where HE scolded me like
nobody's business,in front of the full attendance of people on that day,without
letting me have a word in it,THAT totally was the last straw.I have lost all
respect for you.I no longer looked up on you for anything.YOU, Are neither a
friend or a colleague to me now.YOU, Loudly and pointedly, called me an
irresponsible worker.YOU,Jabbed your finger repeatedly at my face when you
scolded me.I am certainly not appeased with that attitude.I was incensed that
you treated me like that.You, yourself doesnt portray as a good example to all,
and yet still have the gall to shoot me down.So what if you're stressed on that
day.So what if you're under hard pressure that certain hour.That is your job,
your responsibility.You're being paid to handle every shit.I am obviously not
paid to be mocked publicly from you.I above all, doesnt deserve it even if its
my mistake.Dont you know how to approach people nicely,even if they've done
wrong.Is that how you communicate when you're pushed to the limits?So what?!YOU
ARE NOTHING. NOTHING! BUT A FAILURE IN MY EYE.
My Comment:
It's actually happening every where. As for me, sometimes, I really wish to ask that somebody to shut up! But I wish for no quarrels or what ever things nasty might turn up, hence I let him be. So, after reading the blog, I think, if she is really angry, why not tell him off right in front. I did that like a time or two, but to two different person. But, soon after that, we make peace and everythings back to normal again. I think it just take time, and when ya not satisfy, say it out. Holding it back won't do you good. I guess it's a matter of guts. You dare or dare not. And, it a matter of tolerance. You can take it or can't.
What say you? Getting scolded isn't anything bad. I learnt from scoldings.
In fact I yelled back at that someone whom trying to show his superiority to me. And then simply avoid him for sometimes. To avoid complication of things. I dunno if it works not, but now, he sometimes do talk to me. Perhaps, he sees me as a small gal, not worth wasting his energy.
Again, I let out my displeasure to somebody who just couldn't bother to help out, at busy times. And still talk cock like I'm a fool. I'm no fool. I know myself very well, and know who's trying to be a fool out of himself. Hahaha... Anyway, that's working life for poor me. If I got supernatural power, I'll turn anyone I hated to the core into .... no frog this time, I'm very scared of froggies. Hmm.. Into glass, so I can shatter them into pieces... Lol... I'm just simply the descendent of the devil and angel lah... Pardon me for my devilish thoughts.
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Btw, when you are working in the lab, you are supposed to know what you will be going thro. esp. in what is called the "male-dominated" departmen. Guys talking about those things, hmm... I just can't be bothered. Since they are guys anyway. But I will laugh if it's funny. Me, yah perhaps I'm naturally born boyish, so doesn't matter to those at all. Sometimes, somebody scolded the 4 letters word, I don't think it's very rude in front of gals, but it's just not nice to. Anyway, I used that often, to scold people I dislike. Of cos not publicly lah, I'm still a gal, can't really be that vulgar right.
If she can't take it, hmm... why not have a change. Most of the labs are like this. You either have to adapt it, or ... I'm sorry to say the next, leave. For me... I guess, I'm adapting it well. Cos, I had been through worst ordeal before. This won't beat me. It'll only add on to my experiences.
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Everyone experiences something. Not only someone particular. It's just how you gonna treat it.
